An apparent North Korean defector is revealing details about her privileged life in the totalitarian nation. Not using her real name, the woman describes brutal government murders and how Kim Jong-Un has a harem of kidnapped young sex slaves.

“What I saw that day made me sick in my stomach. Despite our privilege, we were scared. I saw terrible things in Pyongyang,” said Hee Yeon – whose real name has not been revealed to protect her identity.  Hee Yeon fled North Korea with her mother and younger brother to South Korea after the death of her father Wui Yeon Lim, who died of alcohol problems.  “I have never felt so happy as I felt when I got out,” she said.

Hee Yeon Lim was the daughter of an army colonel and lived what she called a “privileged life” in North Korean capital Pyongyang.  Because her family was close to Kim, they avoided the poverty and starvation brought upon the average citizen. Her father’s aide drove her to and from school every day in a state-provided vehicle, and the family enjoyed Japanese-style meals made possible by the money her father earned from bribes, she said. But according to the 26-year-old, many in North Korea, were not as lucky. Describing one such occasion of Kim Jong-Un’s brutality, she said she saw 11 musicians brutally executed for making a pornographic video. The defector told The Mirror:

 “We were ordered to leave our classes by security men and made to travel to ­Pyongyang. There is a sports ground there, a kind of stadium. The musicians were brought out, tied up, hooded and apparently gagged, so they could not make a noise, not beg for mercy or scream. They were lashed to the end of anti-aircraft guns.  There were around 10,000 people ordered to watch that day and I was standing 200 feet from these victims. A gun was fired, the noise was ­deafening, absolutely terrifying and the guns were fired one after the other. The musicians just disappeared each time the guns were fired into them. Their bodies were blown to bits, totally destroyed, blood and bits flying everywhere.  And then after that military tanks moved in and they ran over the bits on the ground where the remains lay. The tracks were run over the remains and blood repeatedly, over and over again and made to grind the remains, to smash them into the ground until there was nothing left. I felt desperately ill from witnessing this. It was so horrible and I could not eat for three days as it made my stomach churn.” –Yahoo News

Hee Yeon also alleged that the North Korean leader, Kim Jong-Un would choose teenage classmates to become his sex slaves. When discussing the sex slavery, Hee Yeon said, “Yes, they have to sleep with him and they cannot make a mistake or object because they could very easily simply disappear.”

From an early age, Hee Yeon was taught to never publicly question the regime of then-leader Kim Jong-Il. The message delivered his son and heir Kim Jong Un was clear; he was supposed to be perfect, Hee Yeon said.  “I was brought up told he was like a god – that he was, as a young boy, an expert sailor, marksman before the age of seven, godlike,” she said. “Then I met him at big events I found him terrifying, really scary, nothing godlike about him.”

Kim’s palate was also more refined, Hee Yeon said. While his subjects are forced to eat bark and grass to survive, the North Korean leader dines on Bird’s Nest Soup. It’s a Chinese delicacy made from the saliva of swiftlet birds. A kilogram of the bird’s nests, which are built using the birds’ saliva, can cost up to $12,000 and the soup is supposedly meant to prolong life if it’s consumed every day. Kim is served this soup and other delicacies such as caviar and champagne by his teenage sex slaves, Hee Yeon said.